And so we watch and so we learn/With eyes wide for our dreams to yearn

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It’s easy to forget, sometimes. My world, that is. The rooms around me feel so arbitrary, a safe house, a still point in time – a place of dormancy between journeys, where nothing truly remarkable happens. It is merely a space that can be relied on, for its simple existence. Home, the shell which holds us, a location of healing and preparing, of resting…and waiting.

Still ’round the corner there may wait/ A new road or secret gate;
And though I oft have passed them by/ 
A day will come at last when I
Shall take the hidden paths that run/ 
West of the Moon, East of the Sun

It’s easy to lose your sense of presence here, because how could you focus on the stillness when you know what is happening?
Babies are being born and old grandmothers are speaking fierce words to their loved ones – people are risking their lives to save those who cannot save themselves, young ones are learning, expanding their minds, dreamers are dreaming, adventurers are adventuring, people are dancing, writing music, poems, inventing and discovering, crossing uncharted rainforests, taking specimens from the floor of a volcano, looking for life on the bottom of the ocean – a million languages are being spoken, a thousand cultures are breathing…

I’ve done it before and I’ll do it again – cross the sky and seek out the Great Perhaps. One day I’m going to as free as a migratory african swallow, and I will see it all. One day I will cross the oceans, arrive at places I have only been able to dream of. One day I will shoulder everything I need to live, chase the setting sun and find new worlds. One day I will stand on top of a mountain, dance on foreign shores, look upon the face of the raw wilderness in the animal kingdom, sing exultantly under blue skies that stretch to every horizon. One day I will turn around, take a breath and say “Hello Danielle”. One day I will look on the emotive faces of those I have never known truly before. One day the future will be the present, and everything will fall into place. One day I will chase away the scattered cobwebs that stretch over my mind in the idleness of everyday life, and I shall know every inch of this beautiful, marvelous, impossible world.

But until then…I am 16 and bound to the life of school and suburbia. Until then, I study and I help my mother with chores. Until these days come, 16 months – 508 days must pass, in the sanctuary that holds me here, binds me to this small small pocket of the universe. It will be, it must be, one day I know what I will be. But for now…I am here.


Banana Log with Toffee Chips

log cake
Best eaten: Always.
Always double and triple, you’ll be wanting more.


  • 110g softened butter
  • ½ cup brown sugar
  • pinch of grated lemon rind
  • 2 eggs
  • ½ cup of milk
  • 1 cup S.R. flour
  • 3 (old) bananas
  • 1 tsp bi-carb soda


  1. Cream butter and sugar with lemon rind
  2. Add beaten eggs
  3. Lightly fold in sifted flour, and then thoroughly mashed bananas
  4. Lastly, fold in milk (that’s had the bi-carb soda dissolved in it)
  5. Put into greased log tin and bake in a mod’ oven (180°C)  for 50- 55 minutes
  6. Allow to cool for 5 minutes, before turning out onto a cooler
  7. When cold, ice and rough up with a fork, and then decorate with broken toffee chunks
  8. Eat quickly, before other people hear you made it


  • 3 dsp butter
  • 2 cups icing sugar
  • 1 dsp cocoa powder
  • pinch of salt
  • 1 dsp coffee essence½ tsp vanilla

Toffee Chips

  • 1 cup sugar
  • 1 cup water
  • 1 tsp lemon juice

Place into saucepan, stir over low heat until sugar is dissolved. Bring to boil, cook until a pale amber colour. Pour into battered tin. When cold, break into pieces and insert at chaotic intervals across the log’s iced surface. Make as dense as your sweet tooth can handle.

Serve and enjoy! 😀